So there's this thing going on that I like to call "the universe doesn't want claire and I to go canoeing".
Reasons why:
- the first time we were going to go canoeing there was rain predicted
- we didn't go
- it didn't rain (until after we'd have been home anyway)
- the second time we were going to go canoeing there was thunderstorms predicted
- we didn't go
- it was the sunniest day of the week (next to this one)
- the third day we were going to go canoeing the weather was set
- we were going to go for a couple hours, be back 2 ish (we probably would have had a flat or something if we HAD made it out. gah!)
- claire got a migraine (totally weather related, I swear)
- we didn't go
- it's a gorgeous day! aaah!
see! universe + me and claire canoeing = tricky tricky tricky.
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Wow... the weekend has passed already, without me really even being aware.
I'm going to keep this one short and concise, both because I've got fake nails on (short ones, to let my real nails grow out a bit) and what I've got to say boils down nicely.
I had a great weekend. Really great.
Robyn came up from guelph on friday, and we went out with her friend eric to a show.
And had fun dancing (badly) while sitting at the table (and by the front during pink belly) while people looked at us funny.
Satuday claire came down around noon and we (me, her, robyn and my sister) sat around watching tv for a while. Then robyn went home, and me and claire went downtown to pick up weakerthans tickets and find me a pair of jeans... I really needed a pair of jeans.
Then we went to see bruce allmighty BY OURSELVES (liz said she'd come but she ditched us) and I drove claire home.
We visited lauren's wisdom-teeth-swollen-self on the way (she wasn't very swollen) and caught some sister act goodness.
Then today I slept in 'til 11 (holy that was difficult for me) and went biking with my dad. Then I caught up on some phone calls, went with my mum to the mall to pick a drying rack up for the sink and came home.
Then I glued on some fake nails, cause mine break or a wreck them and they're REALLY short.
It was good.
And this week is shaping up to be a good one too...,
I have the shortest attention span lately.
That and I'm horribly horribly lazy.
I'm bored, and I keep thinking of things I could go do, but they lose their appeal in all of 5 minutes and then I have nothing to do again.
Also, when I want to make plans, things get in the way. Like living at home, and being super lazy.
And I'm babbling.
I'm develloping a tendency to do that.
I'd better go.,
spun So, as promised, here's my opinion of spun:
First things first. I'm going to consider those bothering to read this as having already seen requiem for a dream because the comparison is inevitable. If you've not seen it though, and you're planning to go see spun you might want to hold off, because the style will be fresher to you, and not read the rest of this.
So spun is a movie about drugs. Their making, selling, use. It's alot like requiem for a dream in the way they show each character's reaction to drugs, but there's really only one drug used in the movie and the reactions are more individualized to each character. Also, this movie wasn't completely dependant on realism, but rather depended on the viewers to make some connections. Animations were used for some of the more graphic scenes (hallucinations) and the makeup on a couple of the actors implied a certain look rather than imitating it exactly (spider and cookie, really).
This isn't a movie you'd want to see with your parents (other than the drug thing, there's quite a bit of nudity) if you're not completely comfortable with them, but alot of it's actually really funny... at least in an ironic way.
So basically, I liked it.
It's not a movie that would be a million times better on a big screen, but some of the animations were definitely really cool that size.
It's something to see in the same way requiem is, but I almost think I liked it better because it's sort of crazy-funny in the end.
Last night (being monday...) we (being claire, lauren and I) went to the alkaline trio show at the guvernment.
It was not the best show ever. Lineup was closet monster, pitch black, my chemical romance and then alkaline trio.
Of those, I like mcr and alkaline trio, but neither was stellar.
The sound system wasn't great and the vocals mic was a little low, so that definitely took something away from the show, and mcr wasn't as good as they could have been on top of that. For alkaline trio, same goes, but I with good buddies and that always makes everything fun.
That, and the fact that I got a GREAT happy meal toy before the show (hear the dripping sarcasm. It's the scariest toy ever.)
This morning claire and I sat around and watched some tv and some movies 'til her mom came and got her around 4, and then tonight I was bored so cherry said I could go out to a movie with her and lauren.
So I went and saw spun.
About which I will reserve judgement until tomorrow.,
Well... the thing that was almost as much fun was going to be a show in london (BNO, fullblast, fordirelifesake, blueskiesatwar and the breakup ) but it was raining and we didn't go. Maggie was going to let us sleep over at her house even, but my mom wasn't big on the whole rain thing and we figured we'd just see a show closer to home sometime soon.
Anyway, instead we went for dinner, rented some movies (fubar and rock my world) that were both music themed... coincidentally... and slept. That was good too.
Fubar was less funny than I'd expected, but rock my world made up for it. So terrible that it was great. Seriously great.
Then this morning, we woke up, watched a quality tv movie on the family channel and went to go see a mighty wind, which was good.
A LOT of movies. Yay!
And on that note, my top ten movies of all time in no particular order... as considered at this moment. (This will have changed within 5 minutes, trust me):
- rock my world - top gun - return of the jedi/the emperor strikes back (I can never decide)
- the craft - ghost world - goonies - mary poppins/chitty chitty bang bang (quality dick van dyke)
- moulin rouge - the little mermaid - flight of the navigator
wow. that list is a LITTLE disney heavy at the moment.
Ah well.
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Gah!
I'm all bubbly and crazy! It's quite strange.
Yeah... I know... mood swings are a sign of mental illness. Well sign me up then.
Cause I'm in a good mood today.
You know why? (obviously not... I'll go on)
Because tomorrow is the day I was going to buy my new guitar.
But now I'm not.
But I might do something that's almost as much fun, because my friend maggie (who rocks) has me almost convinced.
I'm not sharing though, cause I'm mean. And I want to talk to claire first.
So bwa ha ha ha ha.
We've just had a roll of toilet paper in our bathroom in which the perforations only started halfway through.
You don't even notice stupid things like that until they aren't there.
Yaaaay for perforated lines in toilet paper rolls!,
This morning, 5:20 am Mum [rather loudly]:Catherine.
Me: ...mumble mumble.
Mum: Catherine. Wake up.
Me [sitting up in bed]:Pardon?
Mum: You heard me.
Me: No... I heard "Catherine mumble"
Mum: No you didn't.
Me: Yes I did. What did you say?
Mum: Wake up.
Me: Oh. Well... I am now.
Mum: Good. And don't go back to sleep. You said you'd wake up at 5:30.
Me: Yep. Okay. I'll go read.
Mum: Your brother's awake. He refused to not be woken up when I was leaving.
Me: Where is he?
Mum: Asleep on the couch upstairs.
Now... it may just be me and my before 6 am brain thinking... but asleep on the couch is NOT the same as up, no?
And I love my mom's way of waking me. It involves standing by the door saying my name along with other assorted sentences loudly so that as I wake up I'm really confused. ,
So it's 10 minutes after midnight, and I've been sitting around, this evening. I've read two books, and I've been being lonely and introspective.
Not that that's horribly unusual for me, just... my mind's been elsewhere lately, and I've not had time for a dose of self-pity in a while. It's the most useless exercise. And I know that. I can sit here for as long as I want, thinking about the fact that I've not really got anything to think about and it won't do me any good.
It won't give me someone I can talk to right now. It won't straighten out my mental picture of myself and my life.
I'm just feeling a little bit useless, and I hate that.
And I know it's partially the product of being at home, and not being able to just break down every once in a while, hole up in my room, and hate everything that doesn't go exactly my way.
And not being able to play the piano. Or the guitar. Or mindlessly sing along to whatever music I've got on. Because all those things are limited here. Limited to whenever my sister's not home, because when she is she's studying. And she's home alot.
I was going to buy myself a new guitar this week. An electric. Because with my acoustic in kingston with me all I've got left at home is my sister's classical... and it's just not the same.
But tonight I changed my mind. Realized that there's no point in buying something I don't need, that's only for myself.
I'm not going to buy the kayak I was going to buy when the end of the summer started to get closer either. It's not worth it.
I want to be so far away from who I am. I want to hide behind everything, be someone totally different. I want to be someone who has something she's good at. Especially good, not just mediocre.
I want to be able to tell my friends everything, and not surround myself in little white lies.
I want it to be always true when I say I'm okay, even though that's entirely unrealistic.
I'm done now.
That tirade has made me feel a ton better, and I can start being cheery for a bit.
And go read another book.
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last cigarette: never.
last kiss: er... As sad as it may be... I can't remember. I know who it must have been, but as I can't remember the actual event, let's just leave it be.
last good cry: a couple weeks ago.
last library book checked out: A volume of stories by Colette. In french.
last movie seen: x2
last book read: three junes. didn't like it overmuch.
last cuss word uttered: bitch. cause I was reading out loud and they refer to female dogs.
last beverage drank: water
last food consumed: candy buttons
last crush: dunno
last phone call: made? zack and lauren. received? claire.
last tv show watched: er... some tv movie.It'll be dawson's creek shortly (if that's still on). Every day on the superstation *sigh* so nice.
last time showered: last night
last shoes worn: my big clunky roxy skate shoes
last cd played: the one leah made me
last item bought: candy
last downloaded: I can't on this computer :(
last annoyance: the fact that I seem to be develloping a cold
last soda drank: coke
last thing written: coke
last key used: e
last word spoken: up
last sleep: About 25 minutes ago.
last im: bri
last sexual fantasy: er... meh?
last weird encounter: running into people from school at the movies.
last ice cream eaten: I had an ice cream sandwich saturday night. A mini one.
last time amused: ditto with claire. This is amusing me now.
last time wanting to die: a couple weeks ago.
last time in love: dunno.
last time hugged: my dad hugged me yesterday. Or... he might have been trying to strangle me.
last time scolded: today to.. get up, exercise, clean up...
last time resentful: yesterday with my mom I think.
last chair sat in: my computer chair. now.
last lipstick used: back at school. Some pinky-red thing.
last underwear worn: the ones I have on. Blue.
last bra worn: black one with a pink flower.
last shirt worn: my queen's equestrian shirt
last time dancing: after lizzy mcguire in claire's kitchen
last poster looked at: the episode 1 one that's rolled up on my desk.
last show attended: I don't rightly know.
last webpage visited: other than the one I'm entering this on right now? Um... claire's blog I guess.
stolen from claire who stole it from someone else. Who probably stole it from someone else. Cause that's how these things work.,
Tonight rocked, plain and simple.
I went to claire's house around seven, with the original plan of sitting about and watching dawson's creek. We were going to be the only ones around so we figured it made sense... but the fun that was had was much more exciting.
Firstly, beth (claire's younger sister) go5t a concussion in her soccer game, so she was home, and leah (claire's youngEST sister) was home too. And claire had already seen the dawson's creek. So we scrapped that.
Instead, we went to go see the lizzy mcguire movie, as claire and beth had been intending to go. It was suitably horrible, and therefore absolutely hilarious. The cheese was rampant.
We had gotten free krispy kreme hats, and krispy kreme doughnuts were buy one box get one free, so we picked up a dozen (6 for claire's family, 6 for mine) for the price of half a dozen. We then got in the car, put on our hats and drove while singing along to the radio.
And then we got back, downloaded the horrible horrible main song of the movie (which is nevertheless really sticky in your head) and sang along. Because we're the funnest cowpokes in the west.
Yaaaay! Claire's back!
Oh, and by the way, she finally gave me my christmas present. I have an n'sync calendar. I am therefore cooler than anyone else in the entire world (it was a joke present kinda. There's many stories behind the n'sync connection). It's going up on my wall next year first thing. And it needs a place of honour right now.,
I just found out that even with my less-than-spectacular 67 in calculus, I got a 76 average this year.
I don't get it.
At all.
But I'm crazy-overjoyed.
And now I will talk about Queen's for Riley, who posted this in my comments. Because, well... I'm such a helpful girl.
Okay... Riley's questions and my retarded answers.
-should I go?
Well, that's really up to you. But if you get in and you want to go... go for it. Sadly, there's not many scholarships drifting around (although that changes depending on what program you're in) and it's an expensive school, but it's alot of fun for sure.
-is it good?
If you mean is it a good school then yes. It is. There's some really super-sketchy profs (like my drama prof... oh my), but that's all there is to really say about that. Good otherwise, sure. There's alot of social stuff going on all the time (if you're social... I'm not really) and there's many many random clubs to be weird in. Like studio q. Imagine an hour of that programming a week... that apparently only one person watches. And there's water (by water I mean lake). I'm crazy about water.
-what's bad about it?
It's like a toronto private schools convention sometimes. Big preppy population and kiiiinda waspy (but... if that's not your scene it's easy enough to meet other people). Oh, and also, going to clubs is big. There's two main ones that everyone in first year goes to (I've never been, sadly) but there's other stuff to do as well. But not so much if you're underage. I'm sure there'll be more all-ages stuff next year because of the double cohort but a good fake i.d. if you'll be underage all year seems to be the thing to do. Good thing though... kingston punk productions puts on alot of great shows. They used to be every saturday - which was gold - but don't have a regular venue anymore. There's still alot though, and those are great if you like punk... or if you don't, really. There's the odd metal or ska show, good indie rock bands and such.
-I'm from toronto too so was it a shock when you went from big city to butt-crap nowhere?
Errr... if you think kingston is butt-crap nowhere you've never been to small-town ontario. Depending on how much you're used to going out it can be kind of a big change because there's less going on, but it's not huge. There's one main street with a bunch of bars and stores, and you can walk everywhere (if you're not horribly lazy) so the subway's no great loss. The one thing you might miss is a big mall, but you can take the bus or make friends with someone who has a car and exploit them senselessly.
-I've never left my house for more than a month! am I screwed because of this?
Nor had I. Didn't bother me. And I'm pretty dependant on my parents (they've controlled my life so long that sometimes I think I have absolutely no mind of my own).
That's a personnal thing though I think. Toronto's not far and a round trip bus ticket on the Tricolour (Queen's has buses every weekend. Hurrah!) is $48. Not a huge expenditure if you want to go home.
I know one of my friends had problems with being homesick but I think that was mostly because she missed her boyfriend when they got back together, and once she's started going home every second weekend she couldn't stop. But then, kingston was the furthest she'd ever been from home, and she's from a really small town.
Mostly, unless something was wrong, all my friends were really happy to be away. And none of them had ever been away from home more than a month. Although... think about it. You go to school in september, thanksgiving's in october, christmas in december, reading week in february and you're done by the end of april. So a couple visits home and you WOULDN'T be away for more than a month.
I went down to the beaches today with cherry, my floormate from wally rob, and cherry's friend alex. We walked on the boardwalk and played some terrible frisbee (cherry, I've still got it, I'll give it to you soon). Then we came here, got movies, and went to cherry's and watched them. Good times. Laid back and relaxed, my favourite.
We didn't however see X2, which was the original plan.
And that's it.
I'm not very interesting, and my brain hurts, so I think I'll just go.
I'll try for some real insight tomorrow... really.,
LAYER ONE:
-- Name: catherine
-- Birth date: january 21st
-- Birthplace: ottawa civic hospital, in ottawa
-- Current Eye color: they change... but greeny blue
-- Hair Color: red blonde
-- Height: 5'7 ish
-- Righty or Lefty: i'm a righty dude!
-- Zodiac Sign: aquarius
LAYER TWO:
-- Your heritage: french/english. Lotsa different countries.
-- The shoes you wore today: my mary janes that have cats on them
-- Your weakness: self deprecation... some other stuff
-- Your fears: water, suprisingly
-- Your perfect pizza: cheese, mushrooms, onion, pinnaple, pepperoni. Or just cheese.
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: getting good grades this year, not driving everyone away.
LAYER THREE:
-- Your most overused phrase on AIM: yeh/yeah/okay (I'm the one-word-answer girl)
-- Your thoughts first waking up: meeeeeeeh. (I'm really coherent)
-- Your best physical feature: PHYSICAL feature? I don't have one. Overall? My biting sarcasm.
-- Your bedtime: 1 ish lately
-- Your most missed memory: there's a million. many involve road trips with claire and people.
LAYER FOUR:
-- Pepsi or Coke: coke, this year
-- McDonald's or Burger King: wendy's (I'm so with claire on this one)
-- Single or group dates: single. Although its not like I've been on one in a while.
-- Adidas or Nike: no preference AT all
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: nestea, but I don't like the new cans
-- Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla
-- Cappuccino or coffee: er... dunno. don't really drink coffee.
LAYER FIVE:
-- Smoke: nope
-- Cuss: all the time. bad habit.
-- Sing: yes. :)
-- Take a shower everyday: yep.
-- Have a crush: not at the moment
-- Do you think you've been in love: I sure hope not. Wouldn't be much to look forward to.
-- Want to go to college: no. I'm canadian. I'd rather go to "university". Heh heh.
-- Like(d) high school: not the high school parts of it. But the friends parts.
-- Want to get married: yeh. Doesn't mean it'll ever happen.
-- Believe in yourself: nope
-- Get motion sickness: if I already have a headache
-- Think you're attractive: not really. I'm not monstrous though.
-- Think you're a health freak: no.
-- Get along with your parent(s): mostly
-- Like thunderstorms: yes
-- Play an instrument: keyboard/piano and guitar
LAYER SIX:
In the past month...
-- Drank alcohol: yep.
-- Smoked: no
-- Done a drug: no, never in fact.
-- Had Sex: no
-- Made Out: in the past month? no
-- Gone on a date: no
-- Gone to the mall?: YES! (I went with my mom a couple days ago. I bought a movie)
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no
-- Eaten sushi: no
-- Been on stage: once again.... past month? no
-- Been dumped: no
-- Gone skating: no
-- Made homemade cookies: no... planning to today
-- Gone skinny dipping: no
-- Dyed your hair: errr... possibly JUST over a month ago. It's all gone now.
-- Stolen anything: no
LAYER SEVEN:
Ever...
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: no
-- If so, was it mixed company: n/a
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: yes. It's not going to happen again.
-- Been caught "doing something": hem... if I remember correctly: "well YOU two are in a compromising position". We weren't "doing something" though. So not really.
-- Been called a tease: no.
-- Gotten beaten up: no. tackled, yes.
-- Shoplifted: no
-- Changed who you were to fit in: no. I don't fit in.
LAYER EIGHT:
-- Age you hope to be married: no clue.
-- Numbers and Names of Children: 2 probly. Not something I really want to think about.
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: err... dream wedding? I'm not really that much of a girly girl.
-- How do you want to die: quietly
-- Where you want to go to college: I'm good with queen's
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: a housewife that reads alot of romance novels and watches alot of soaps. Actually? No clue.
-- What country would you most like to visit: australia! (dude! Claire! we should go together!)
LAYER NINE:
In a guy/girl..
-- Best eye color? brown
-- Best hair color? brown
-- Short or long hair: shorty long (can't think of a better way to describe it)... shaggy looking
-- height: taller than me.
-- Best weight: er... average?
-- Best articles of clothing: pants, jackets, shoes
-- Best first date location: dinner or coffee.. (with claire on this one, but that's if you're not already friends)
-- Best first kiss location: lips
-- Do you think of anyone specific in answering those: (my made up new question)
LAYER TEN:
-- # of drugs taken illegally: 0
-- # of people I could trust with my life: I don't know. when I'm down... I'd trust very fewpeople with my life. There's maybe 5
-- # of CDs that I own: I can count over a hundred from this vantage point.
-- # of piercings: my ears (1 each)
-- # of tattoos: 0
-- # of scars on my body: a bazillion. Damn those little mosquitos
-- # of things in my past that I regret: 2 for sure. There's some others that are less certain.
Well... thanks for that clairebear. I'm gonna go watch a movie now. Uncle Buck I think. Haven't watched it in a while and I just saw a promo on TBS.
Besides, I know exactly where it is on the movie shelf.,
Sometimes I think about starting a read diary.
Because as much as it doesn't bother me to talk about anything, sometimes I just want to blather on about nothing and know that noone will ever see it.
For that matter, maybe I'd be better off just writing things down and then burning the paper they're written on. As much as that seems to be a total waste of paper.
Anyway, now that that's out of my system... there's nothing going on here.
I'm meant to be cleaning my room right now, but I really don't want to (because I'm laaazy).
In spite of being lazy though, I've done some form of exercise every day. And I haven't lost any weight at all, which is strange for someone whose weight fluctuates as much as mine does.
So I can't even find solace in food anymore, because I really have to stop gaining weight. But I don't want to think about that. I hate it.
That's enough self-pity for now.
Maybe I'll go have some carrots. Mmmm.... carrots.
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Name: Cat Home: Edinburgh, United Kingdom About Me: Managed to graduate from Queen's, and am now in Teacher training at Edinburgh.
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